Dear baby Rowan...

Last night we stopped by to visit Baby Rowan at the cemetery. Emma wrote a letter to baby Rowan and wanted to place it where she's buried.

Emma's letter:
Dear Baby Rowan,
I love you baby Rowan so much.
Baby Rowan I hope you will get alive again.
I hope your body gets protected.
Baby Rowan I know you get alive again someday.
I love you.
Love, Emma

We love you sweet Rowan!

Unicorn and Leprechaun

UNICORNS!!

This past week or so Emma has been obsessed with unicorns and rainbows. She kept begging me to make her a horn. Finally, yesterday morning while I was running errands Derek was the good daddy and made her a pink and sparkly unicorn horn. She is in HEAVEN! She has that thing on all day. This morning her and Thomas were in the front playing and she was running like a fast unicorn. hahahaha. Look at her fly!
Leprechaun Trap!
This morning we made a leprechaun trap, getting ready for the little guy to come. We've never made one before but had fun putting it together. Emma gathered the sticks for the ladder, I worked on the hat, Daddy helped the kids put ladder together, and Thomas poked Daddy in the eyes with the sticks.

We thought it might be nice to the Leprechaun if we put some padding at the bottom of the hat for when he falls in the trap. Emma thought of the idea to use pillow stuffing for the bottom. Brilliant!
The sign reads:
"No climbing the ladder.
Keep off off
X NO"
We await for your arrival little Lephrechaun! :)

Forever changed....

Our sweet niece Rowan Sage Frazier returned to the loving arms of her Savior.

Words can't express the heart ache that the Frazier family (and all loved ones) have faced this past week and a half. Derek's brother Dennen and his beautiful wife Hilary lost their unborn baby girl, Rowan Sage Frazier at 32 weeks. Last Monday morning they found out the horrible news that their baby didn't have a heart beat, even though she had been moving the day before. Hilary delivered her on Tuesday morning. Derek and I had the wonderful opportunity to see that sweet angel whose spirit had returned to her Savior's arms but whose tender and beautiful body was laying in her parents arms. There are no words that can describe the feeling that was in the room other then pure reverence as Hilary and Dennen beautifully describe it. We will never forget it. Tears were shed as we looked at her little body. The feeling in that room was amazing. That special little girl changed all of us for the better. Her mother and father are incredible examples and there is no doubt that they will see their sweet angel again.
It has been a very rough and heart wrenching trial. I read from someone who went through similar trial that "dark times and trials are important. Trials show us the beauty of God's comfort. It's through the comfort we receive from God during our difficult times that we learn how to comfort others. Sometimes the process of growing closer to our Heavenly Father comes along the path of heartache and pain." I think this experience has brought all of us that much closer to our Savior and Father in Heaven. It gave all of us a better eternal perspective on life and how to live our daily life. Again, this little girl has changed all of us for the better.

Our deepest love to Dennen and Hilary. They never imagined they would be carrying the casket and attending the funeral of their sweet daughter for whom they anxiously and lovingly waited.

Mother Hilary telling little Finn (big brother) about what is going on.

Hilary read a beautiful poem to her daughter.

Beautiful music sung and played by my friend, Amy LaMarr. She sang "A Living Prayer" by Alison Krauss. SO beautiful.

My husband Derek had the opportunity of reading Dennen's letter to his dear Rowan.

Finn pointing to the balloons

Aunt Britta and Emma placing flowers at the casket.

Little Thomas admiring the flowers.

I found Emma petting the casket. Isn't that sweet? I think she understood a little bit of what was going on.

beautiful last words from Dad's letter to Rowan:
...Your memory will remain with us as we pass through this existence. Knowing that you are waiting for our arrival on the other side will be a blessing and a motivation to your family throughout their lives. We love you Rowan.

Love,

Your Dad