Little Miss Mommies

Emma and I get to participate in an activity called "Little Miss Mommies" where we and her friends (5 and 6 year olds) moms rotate each week to host an activity. We do things like learn to bake, clean, crafting, etc... Well last week her friend Hannah's mom hosted and had the girls clean their library and then pampered themselves with nail painting.  Emma had so much fun. The next day she asked me to call her friends house to see if they need help cleaning their house. Her friend Fay's mom invited her over to help clean.  Here she is with her back pack with cleaning supplies ready to go! I guess it's not as fun cleaning your own home as it is cleaning others :)

All the love..

It's been a house full of love in the Frazier household. We have just loved having Joseph home and are still just trying to adjust to everything and keeping our sanity with being home bound most days. Spring cannot come any sooner. But we're hanging in there and we can't get enough of this little guy.

 Thomas says while feeding Joseph, "Good job drinking Joseph."

Balls and Thomas

Let's just say Thomas LOVES balls. Anything from marbles, soccer balls, bouncy balls, soft balls, etc..That's all he wanted for Christmas, "Balls." Well he got marbles for Christmas and they are ALL OVER THE HOUSE. It's a mixture of his marbles along with the "Hungry Hungry Hippos" marbles. They are in the palm of his hands all day long. Tonight I was putting the kids to bed and Thomas wanted to bring his marbles to bed. I casually suggested to put his balls to bed instead of putting them in his bed. After getting Emma in her bed, I see Thomas putting his marbles to bed in the doll house bed.. HILARIOUS! I love this boy.

Joseph is home!

 We received word earlier in the week that if Joseph continued eating well then we could bring him home this week. SO EXCITED! His feedings did go well and passed all his tests and Thursday morning was the day. Here is a photo of Derek and children making a "welcome home Joseph" sign. My Christmas wish came true!

We were lucky to have his primary nurse Pam discharge him. She's been so good to us. All the nurses have.

 He was quite upset as we were getting him unplugged and dressed ready to go.

 Still upset

 Then VOILA! The magical warm jump suit did the trick. HE LOVED that thing. It was instant warmth and comfort to this little guy.

 

It's finally time for us to take him home!!!

 Still very content

HOME SWEET HOME!

Joseph's surgery

This was just before the surgery

 Our little Joseph had his hernia surgery last Friday, Dec. 14th. We were told earlier in the week that the surgeon, Dr. Downey would like to perform the surgery on Joseph before he gets home after all. I was feeling so nervous throughout the rest of the week, mostly the idea of him being under anesthesia and being cut, but we knew it needed to happen.
We got there Friday morning and his primary nurse Pam was getting things ready and waiting to hear when surgeon was ready for him. We then wheeled him to the patient waiting room in the O.R. Dr. Downey came and looked at him and explained to us that he would also look on Joseph's other side (left side) to see if there was another hernia. They also said that he may have a slight umbilical hernia. That was new to us, we didn't know that.
Soon, they were ready for him and we wheeled him to a certain point in the hall and then they took him. I had a ball in my throat and wanted to burst into tears. I wanted so badly to be right there with him and hold him. We just had to trust the staff and put our son in their hands. That was rough. 

In the waiting area with his nurse Pam. She is so wonderful.

This was just after his surgery

The surgery took about and hour and a half. Dr. Downey came out to talk to us and told us he repaired three hernias, the original one, one on the left side and his umbilical. THREE HERNIAS! Still gets me. He is recovering well and has gained his appetite back quickly. If we get him on the right track with feedings again then he can come home soon. :) What a little trooper Joseph is. He is such a fighter!

Cookie Jar

Who took the cookie from the cookie jar? THOMAS DID!! (just before dinner)

Enduring

Early this morning Joseph had a hernia. After sacrament meeting, I went in for feeding time at 11am and his nurse Launa wasn't in at the time. She was in her sacrament meeting in the hospital. The neighbor nurse Katherine told me how miserable he was this morning and that he had had a hernia. I was completely shocked and heart broken that he suffered and I wasn't even there. I was trying to register it all. She told me the doctor came in and was able to relieve the hernia by pushing it back then he had felt better and was able to sleep. His nurse Launa said that during his diaper change around 7:30am, he was SCREAMING and his lower pelvic area was full and hard. She called in the Nurse Practitioner and she was too nervous to push it back in herself because of how hard the lump was in his scrotum so she had the doctor come do it. They went and took an x-ray of him. So of now, they are going to check him at every diaper change to see if it's come back down. The doctors will also check on him once or twice a day. They said that the opening is still quite small which can make it challenging to push it back each time. The surgeon told the nurse practitioner today that he will look at Joseph before he's ready to go home and confirm if he needs surgery or not. If he does need surgery it would be good to get it done while he is still in the NICU instead of being home and then having to come back and admit him in the Pediatric unit. They probably want to wait and do the surgery when he is nursing about four times a day and gained more weight. So we shall see. He is up to 5 pounds now.

Today after hearing all the news, I was able to try and nurse him while he was hooked up to feeding tube. He was too exhausted to try. That's been pretty typical of him the last week or so. They had to put him back on oxygen yesterday to help him not be so exhausted. It hasn't really helped with nursing yet, but time will tell. After we tried nursing, I held him skin to skin. I noticed he was kind of gagging a little on me and I thought he was refluxing. After holding him for about 25-30 minutes he was gagging again and swallowing and crying. Soon after, he threw up ALL over and his feeding tube had slipped out. He had throw up coming out of his nose and he couldn't breathe. The nurse quickly suctioned him out of his mouth and his nose which helped but we could tell he was still gurgling in his chest like he needed to let out a big cough to get it out. It was so scary to see him scream and then not be able to breathe and his eyes were SO BIG as he struggled to breathe. It was horrifying to me. What happened was the feeding tube had shifted from all the movement that morning and then me holding him that it came out of his stomach and was sitting in his esophagus and that's why he threw up all the milk.  Now they have to keep a close eye on his lungs to make sure the liquid doesn't sit in his lungs and cause infection which would cause pneumonia. Our poor sweet boy.

They tell you right when you have a preemie baby that you should expect ups and downs with these babies. I feel like he has done SO well. Then as of last week it has just felt like he's been going down the slope a little bit with being too exhausted to nurse with exception of a few pretty good latches. He has worked so hard and continues to do so, but his little body can only do so much. Let's hope and pray this hernia can be taken care of and healed quickly and that he doesn't have to keep suffering with it and that he and I can get this nursing down soon. 

 Big sister singing him her own song that she made up. :)
Last Friday was the last day his siblings and other visitors (besides his parents and grandparents) could see him because of RSV season. Emma was so sad not being able to visit him in hospital. She is so anxious for him to come home, as all of us are.

 Thomas sang "I am a Child of God" to his little brother.

 This picture was taken yesterday before all this other stuff happened today. Isn't he SO cute? He is filling out quite well and his coloring looks great. That hand in the mouth is a very good thing because he's recognizing when he's hungry and sucks on his little hands when he is hungry.

 Melt my heart

Your family loves you sweet Joseph boy. We continue praying for you and hope you will recover quickly and come home!